So I went. I carried on and on to Bill before this class about how I hoped it wasn't step aerobics for the first part because step aerobics reminds me of a dance class and I am awful at coordinated anything.
Well, it wasn't a step class. IT WAS TRIBAL DRUM DANCING YOGA WHATEVER.
Eesh. I am being totally honest when I tell you that any kind of dance related class scares the hell out of me and makes me very uncomfortable. This is directly related to being kicked out of dance class when I was around 6 years old because I would ruin the rehearsal. True story.
Now, Kim is a former dancer and gym instructor, so dancing anything comes naturally to her. She led us through some kind of squat sequence in time to drumming. Not surprising at all, when everyone else was squatting and swaying to the right, I was swaying to the left. Basically thats how the whole class went for me until the yoga portion. Now, what is frustrating with this is that I was not really getting a great workout because I was too focused on being in time with everyone and not looking like an idiot. I could feel my jaw tightening up and my head spitting out all kinds of awful words.
Then I told myself to stop. Just stop it. No one else in that yoga class cares if I am swinging my arms the wrong way - heck, the class is in a dark room and everyone else is too focused on themselves not looking like an idiot. And truth be told, we all looked like idiots. It was tribal drum dance yoga...for non-dancers.
The class went much better after I got over myself and my hang ups. Its funny how a memory, an old fear, can absolutely destroy you and your confidence unless you confront it, see it for what it really is - wasted energy holding you back.
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This Monday is a holiday and Revelation will not be holding their regularly scheduled yoga classes. Instead, Kim is cancelling the Awakening Yoga, Power Yoga and YinYang Yoga and is instead holding a 2 hour class at 9am. I am assuming that this will be a mixed style class, but no promises. If anyone would like to join me, please let me know!