I have been in an on and off again disagreement with one of the trainers in my gym. Without getting into the overly long and ridiculous details, the basic problem is this: I do not want a trainer. This particular trainer is insistent that I need his services and has tried to bully me, sweet talk me, embarrass me and harass me into using his services.
His last display of downright unprofessionalism (think making an example out of me to his client such as "she would have better results with me right? You would never waste your time with those workouts" and publicly discussing my financial situation with his client, loudly, in front of about 8 other people) I decided to take action.
What kind of action? I filled out a comment card. Yup, thats it. Who knows if anyone even read it. But ever since that last exchange and the comment card, things have changed. The harassing has stopped. What has also stopped is my being polite. I tend to be friendly with everyone in the gym but now I make a point of giving him dirty looks, of avoiding his area of the gym and of not saying hello.
I hate how that feels. I cannot stand negative energy and make it a point to avoid negative people...and it bothers me immensely that this person has driven me to be negative. Negativity and anger really drain your energy, they bring you down. They are useless emotions.
Today instead of doing my New Rules workout up in the big boy gym (Yay Stage 5!) I stayed down in the regular gym. I finagled some open space and basically created my own workout station. As you can imagine, this sucked up a ton of time. And I felt bad for avoiding the big boy gym.
So basically, I feel lousy for all the negative energy and I feel lousy for avoiding the negative energy. Awesome.
I could smile and be nice like before...but that has previously just led to more advances despite my clear message that I am not interested. The only answer I can come up with is to remain neutral and not angry. To not let this person destroy my downtime in the gym. To not be beat down by my own mind and the imaginary situations (and infinite screaming matches) it creates. This trainer, I suppose in a way, has created a unique opportunity for me to practice all that I preach. To not be controlled by my mind and to not be controlled by my emotions.
On Thursday I will go up to the big boy room. I will remain neutral. I will not be afraid. And I will have a good workout.